When Life Whispers & Shocks

I’m totally on a roll here. My teacher prompted us for our social media homework today to share our brand story, our why for doing what we do.

I felt stressed answering this question because I don’t have the story of, “my life was falling apart so I built this business brick by brick.” I see that story all the time.

Mine is different.

It wasn’t one dramatic moment that led me here. It was more like a calling. I kept saying yes to life. Step by step, following little internal pulls that didn’t always make sense. It’s was also important to say no to experiences that didn’t feel aligned. Like when I stepped into a daycare with my 6 week old thinking I would be just leaving her there while I went back to work. My body said hell nah. And a hell yes to homeschooling and the journey of entrepreneurship.

Whispers and shocks.

The whispers are subtle. A feeling you can’t fully explain. A conversation, a synchronicity, an opportunity that feels strangely aligned. A knowing that something is worth exploring before you have full understanding.

Then there are the shocks.

Shocks are the moments life becomes too loud to ignore. Burnout. Conflict. Identity collapse. Deep exhaustion. Situations where something in your life no longer fits the way it used to. Those stories you have where life take a 90 degree turn.

Whispers come first but when they are consistently overridden, life gets louder until we can’t bypass it anymore. Until we are at that rock bottom place.

Smaller recalibrations happen always on the path. I’ve experienced friendships falling away, life shifts, moments that redirected me before it got too harsh.

One of my biggest shocks was 16 years ago when I was in an abusive relationship. I reached a point where I really thought I was going to die if I stayed. As soon as I made the decision to make a plan to leave, support appeared. One step led to another, and I was safe and even met my now husband during that time.

Isn’t it wonderful to get to a place where we can look back and see how certain moments pushed us this way then that way. Always guiding.

I didn’t set out to become a shamanic coach.

I was called into healing work through my own lived experience, through my own trauma, and through the process of learning to trust myself.

All along I was just learning to listen.

When the opportunity came to step into this work more fully, an office, a space, a path. I said yes.

When I tell you I had nothing figured out, I’m not lying. I feel like I came at this backwards. But the story I am choosing is that I was ready, and an opportunity that was just too good to be true showed up. I would be a dumb ass if I didn’t just take it, run with it, and see where it leads me.

This truly felt like the next right step in a life that had been speaking to me all along.